23/8/06 ... My last fast

Wednesday
Day-3
Fast made me look dull. Atleast that’s wat a gal told me. And then I thought – ‘ Enough, How can I even afford something like that from a gal?!! ;). God bless god, but I actually felt uneasy the 3rd day with no food and only boiled water.

I actually felt uninterested sort of. Plus didn hav much interesting work to keep myself busy.
Kept doing whatever came to me. Went out with one of my friends to get the phone repaired n all. I m kinda liking the experience of not having a phone except that I miss the phonebook. No I don’t mean I m gonna go with it long time.

Back home from work I was all dead-exhausted. Kept some music to listen to and dunno when I felt asleep. Dunno which world I went to, my landlord came and asked if I had kept the gate open and god knows what reply he got from me. :-)

Slept at 7 and woke up at 10 when one of my colleagues came to my place. It did make me feel good that he came. He kept condemning me for having tried what I did.

And I made up my mind that I m gonna break it tomorrow.
Went to one of my colleagues place for a tiny get-together sort of.

It was the last day of me fasting… It kinda made me happy. and offcourse her too...

22/8/6 ... Day 2

Tuesday
Day 2.
Paryushan onfiltered=> upvaas ongoing.
Me still all ok. I love it that while it all started with the thought of ‘ekashraya’(having food only once in a day) I actually managed to makeup that I m gonna not hav any food the 2nd day as well.

Positively strange, I didn have much interesting to do at work. In fact I was almost bored. Doing work with no food is better than being hungry with no work, I tell you.

Went to few banks for tie-ups etc.

Went to get the ‘blessings’ in the evening.

Was so bored towards the evening that decided to go out. And there was this sale of upto 50% @ pantaloons n all. Went there with my friend. Bought white linen casual pants. Now may be it’s the fast of something but I could easily accommodate in one size less than what I’d normally fit in. It made me happy.

Avoided going to mamaji’s and they don’t even know what I m upto now.
Came home. Guess I walked too much today for not having food. And then I couldn’t even hav water to drink. Watched some random DVD. Didn feel like it.
Felt asleep.

I still wonder why am I exactly going for it? & whats the worth??!!!

21/8/6 ... i started fasting

MONDAY
(Can u believe having no work allows me to write this all from work)

So this gal@work had suggested me to undergo ‘upvaas(fast)’ for paryushan. Offcourse she almost has got this habit of saying lots of things and not(being able to) to deliver it all which I’ve got used to already now. But its alright I guess. Shes a girl anyways. You never know with them.
I m not normally the kind of guy who’d do or even believe in fasts n all. I remember having tried to keep thrusdays during college i.e. eat only once on thrusdays(for I don’t kno what?) but I couldn’t continue even for 4 consecutive thrusdays. But then everythings worth a try in life, they say.
And since
1)I think it was very sweetly nice of her to suggest it to me straight & 2) it was for God ;) - I actually went for it.

I presumed it wont be difficult. I mean I m a healthy guy with lot of ‘storage’.

Lets see….

It was gonna be different for sure. No food, not at all, and only boiled water that too till the evening 7:30 pm or so. So I had actually stuffed myself last night with all things I could want – dabelis/kachoris/pani puris/ras-malai/golas etc. Even slept early and made sure that I don’t hav any water after midnight.

I don’t know what was it but they never believed that I m actually going for it.
Wasn’t too difficult on the very first day. Ppl at work offcourse tried luring me by different food items etc but then ‘that don’t impress me much’.

Work went just ok. Went out for few mins to check results of a certain exam online. Damn, my office still doesn’t have internet.

Had to go to this place called ‘upashray’ which is kind of monastry where jain munis etc stay. Got ‘pachkaan’ i.e. their blessings (I guess). It was just few lines of mantras that finished much before I got that it started and closed my eyes.

So that was it… didn felt like goin out. Just watched someDVDs till I started feelin asleep n all.
Day 1 was quite good except that I felt bit worn out towards the end, but then that was an experience anyways.

20/8/06 ... Sunday

5:50 pm...

woke up at 6:15 and the rains made me cancel the plans to go to 'saat hanuman' walking.

Watched 'kal ho na ho' early mornin. this movie, i tell u, works like coffee for me.

Was still almost asleep whn a colleague breaked into my place...
we planned that we cant plan anything for the day.

had lunch at uncles place, and slept for good 2 and half hours in the afternoon..
helped reach my cousin sis to her hostel.

came here to write this.

might watch 'ahista- ahista' at 6:45, lets c.

later,
himanshu

19/8/06 ... Saturday

So it was saturday,

woke up and came back to my place
did my bit of laundry.

so i bit this orange pants which i never thot i wud in life.. still more, i wore it today and the first thing i did was laughed wathching myself looking in the mirror.
Fashion makes me do strange things... i dont mind exactly.

It made me reach office late at around 11.

There was some issue with the keyboard, reseating the cable made it work fine... i luv the engineer in me ..;)

Did my bit of work n all. So this gal @ work has got her own way of telin shes got so much work someday.

did the work, and left with her to go to a net-cafe... she checked her mails.. i walked her thru my blog(s), And can u beleive it all she was doing was kept yawning at it... offcourse i managed to break the ice wid the jokes and make her smile etc.
Why does she feel so much sleepy?

Bot few another DVDs.

Went this this janmashtami fair in the with my mamaji, it was ok. I didn dislike it as it was not over crowded and all. I bot some accessories and stuff.

Came home and slept.

18/8/6

Friday...

So there is this jain festival for about a week now, called 'paryushan'.

And the gal at work actually suggested me to go for it with the fast for the coming week. So shes jain offcourse.
It was so sweet of her to ask me bout it straight. and she said shes gonna take care of me as its gonna be first time i m gonna attempt somthing like that
ME: u 've been taking care of me anyways :)

Shes just keepin on increasin her importance in my value system

I did my work and stuff...

left frm work...

Went and got few DVDs,

So this colleague of mine whos alone at his place... went to his place for a 'treat', while watching DVDs, slept while watching the new chup-chup ke.

later,
himanshu

17/8/06

9:30 pm,

Thursday,

With all the holidays that preceded it seemd like a monday.

Reached rajkot @ 5:30... didn feel like sleeping then.
Employed on 'kal ho na ho' i think its the most refressing in early morning.

Listend to some music then.
Reached office early and strangely all other offices at this places were closed. It almost felt like a 'bandh' or public holiday.
Didn hav much 2 work. Did my bit.
No work+empty minds lead to lots of gossiping... i frankly think its unprofessional and not happening. Ya ok i was also a part of it.

I m so thankful to the gal@ work for waitin 4 me to leave together.

later,
himanshu.

16/8/06 ... Janmashtami @ gandhidham

So,
it was my best friend lord krishnas b'day.

It started nice n all.

Sat on the pc to write bout KANK.

Talked with mom-dad bout my future an all.. yeah yeah...


nthin else..
was supposd to leave at 12:30.
Went to the temple in the night for the 'krishna-janma' ceremony @ midnight.

The bus was late and arrived at around 1:15...
thank got i had a ticket for a normal seat this time...

15/8/06 ... Happy Independence day

@ Gandhidham
Its strange but one thing i did on this day a lot was sleeping.
Mainly as i had a bad long night journey.
I was sitting on the couch channel-surfing and it felt like saif in DCH courtesy my seat in the cabin next to the driver in last nights journey 'tujhe kya lagta hai main roz is takiye pe bethta hoon?'

Day @ home are relaxed.
I dont hav anything to do except sleep/eat/and channel-surf
Did all that along with talking with mom

14/8/06

So i m writing this on the 16th..

Monday at work was cool..

I talked a lot with the gal at work.I dont kno if its the rains or somthing... i just take it out whtever comes to my mind . I like it that she brought lunch for me although it ws her fast.

Left work on time courtesy the gal.
Its becomin fun.

So mom called up and asked me to visit her as the Diu trip from office is cancelled.
Did my packing n all, i always miss mom while packing.

Had dinner at mamaji's
and left for gandhidham at 11.
Can u beleive i had to opt for the cabin seat. it sucked.

7/8/06 - 13/8/06

So i end up writing my diary weekly...


neah i dont think so.. but its a novelty to do it sometimes anyways.

gotta write lotsa things i did.

....
- Tried making up with the gal@ work... i so much dislike doing it. It always a guys mistake haan. Made up with choclates n all. Lemme confess this nice good guy that i m from within i cant be rude to gals.. not to all of them atleast. And cant beleive she actually did it to me ' get free at 6' lol. I rather leave her or forgive her or somthing

- went to this village called 'Sanathali' officialy. the climate was good enuf for a bike-ride. We did get wet and evn dried up twice. It agen made me feel like 'mohan bhargav' in Swades, albeit i didn find 'Geetli'. Can u beleive the gal @ work actually asked bout it and i replied ' guji gals aint smart'. Guess wht she didn hav anythin to say. ;)

- whats it with gals and choclates and that to dairy milk.

- kept doing my work.. gettin better at it otherwise.

- Nthin much i guess,
later
himanshu,

6/8/06 ... Sunday/ Happy Friendhsip day.

Woke up @ 5:30
Me and my friend went to temple 'Saat Hanuman'. Its around 18 kms from our place. The best part - we went there walking.


Had a weird friendhship day. No Comments.
Aint it an irony that we need a special day to be celebrated as 'friendship' day.?!!!
I mean friendship and love for that matter are too universal and cute feelings to be alloted to single days. While and entire life is less to cherish these, we asign a single-damn day in year to them.

wrote on Omkara.

Nthin much
himanshu.

5/8/06 ... Saturday... Gals are still a '?'

Went office on time for a saturday.

Started doing my pending work and all.

A female did it to me again. Made me realize that i just can never understand them. The less said bout it, the better.
I mean theres always a better way to say 'no'.All i was/wanted to say is that 'thank god u r here, i was so bored'.
And its useless being sweet with ladies.

Went to watch 'Anthony kaun hai' in the evening.
Its just ok.

I hate to admit it - it was a bad day.

Nthing else.

4/8/06 ... Dear gal@work:

Friday..

after so many days now, i reached office earlier today.
i dont kno what exactly made me do that.

Did work and all...

Cancelled the proposed trip to Mt. Abu with one of my friends.

I actually told this today to tht 'gal @ work': " why do gals take everything so seriously".

And she told me that " i talk too much"
I said right i m a 'nikhalas' guy but i always try to speak good which wont hurt anyone.

i quite didn like that she left early and that we coudnt leave together... and its absolutely fine.

God i cant beleive i m behaving like this kid already.

Gotta write more .....

Dear gal@work,
I hope its ok to address u like that, coz mostly you are never gonna come to know that someones writes bout u. I dunno whts it with u, u aint an ordinary gal. U talk nice and less. Much lesser than me. U like movies, not as much as me maybe. I think its too sweet of u to invite me to your place for food. But frankly despite all ur niceness i find it positively odd at first but yeah i wanna sure join u in dinner soon. Pls dont do it to me that u ask me for food its k, and if i do it, its bad. I m almost afraid of it. Because frankly i find this place rajkot sad and unfriendly at times. Not as gud/cute as pune-delhi atleast.

Stop assuming that i m gonna ask u for a movie when i talk bout a new one. Not everytime ok.
If u want it then just tell me and tell me straight as a scale. I cant assume things like u do.

I think ur cool, but wonder how much unrajkotiya u r.Like can we go shopping.?or may be hav food outside... i bets its gonna be 'jain' one. But may be i m kinda afraid or smthin.. or may be js dont think its worth it, worth even asking.

No, I aint bad.

Oh i like the way u show ur gums while smiling...
and pls stop givin me that look.


nothing much,

later,
himanshu.

3/8/06 ... in Amreli

thursday...

so the rains made me avoid going there yesterday...
but the 'sincere himanshu' + no rains compelled to go amreli this day.

left there at around 9.
The most sucking part was that i was going alone...
slept during the bus journey... and slept more...

Going thru a crowded place with few villagers in the bus and me dressed nicely formally makes me feel like SRK in swades in the train sequence ... ;)

It rained on and off during the journey.
Reached the bank... met the guys there... and then was taken to the manager guy.
Did the talks and tea.

It was a matter of not even 2 hours.

didn feel like lunch. caught the next available bus to leave back

rached back in rajkot at around 6. reached office to discover we were closing already. got lift from the 'gal @ work' to my place... didn invite her to my place due to all the filth there.

Oh i luv it whn shes happy...

later,
himanshu

2/8/07 ... watched Omkara

Wednesday...

I loved rains coz it made me avoid going to amreli today,

So reached office late...

i know this is strange and may be sweet too but apart from not liking the fact that i was supposed to go alone what made me happy nt going amreli was that i 'd spend more time at work as i kinda dislike goin to amreli. And may be the office is much better with the new gal at work.
damn i cant beleive i wrote that.

but ya thts true...
had a normal day at work...
left and thts it...

it still raind...
went to watch 'omkara' 9-12... its no ordinary movie now.
it was an experince. and it made me keep thinking.

had hotmilk on way back return from the multiplex.
nothing else,
himanshu